the very first time when "God" actually felt real to me was when i saw wat natalie wrote to me during our council camp.
"God must have spent alot time on u cuz u look pretty"
it's not abt the pretty part lah. the thing is, i realised for the first time in my life that God actually "spend time" He almost feel human to me at that moment. oh well. that was after my first visit to church. even when my boy brought me to church for the first time in my life, i didnt felt that He's this real to me.
since young, "God" is just an english word to me. after i visit church for the first time, "God" felt terrifying to me. He felt like this big supernatural being who watches over u to make sure u dun sin. oh well. haha. i think it's when u really grow in Him and with Him, u'll realise that He's just like a daddy, a fren. and thats when i started calling him "the big guy up there". heh. i'm reading this book called "drawing near" by the John something guy. i forgot his last name lah. i think it has a pretty nice impact on me. :)

it's a nice surprise last night. :) she is so so nice. and how i wish she's my leader. someone who really sincerely reach out from her heart to bless others. she really did impacted me somehow or another. thank you.. very much appreciated.

i've applied for sim. Bachelor of Science in Banking and Finance. 3 year course starting from August 2006. i'm looking forward. :) finally i can start studying again. heh. how much i missed school and study. yeah! sch coming!! time to get new stationaries, books, a nice bag. and get ready for school!! er. i sound like a primary school kid i know. haha. i'm happy happy happy. finally. :D

i think i need a hair cut. and new hair dye. i need a nice tan. and more new clothes. havent got enough time to go shopping. it's GSS now.. a season made for the prestigious female species. hoho.